First of all, I am so relieved to post all of those chapters that I had 'saved up' they were torturing me! Like a gossipy person who suddenly stumbled upon the biggest secret in the universe only to find out that it also contained a curse of never being able to share it with anybody else. I hated being out of sync with the people who read the novel.
On a serious note, I am feeling what I imagine being heartbroken feels like, only I was let down by my own ability and the expectations I had put on myself. In a perfect world, I'd write just as a hobby, but as things stand I am a grown man in a third-world country and a traditional family. The pressure to be a breadwinner and make something out of myself, not for the sake of survival but merely to complete some sort of accepted societal image weighs on my shoulders every single day.
I had put a lot of pressure on something that I was just learning, before this novel I had never written any kind of story format, so it was definitely a very new experience for me and I was just learning as I went along.
Ideally, I wanted to make some sort of small income with writing to be able to take that breather of 'Ok here look I also have a paycheck just get off my back', but sadly I was incompetent. My story though successful by some standards, it was a huge failure when it came to the goals I had in mind and so with a heavy heart, I can only drop it.
I never thought it'd be this hard nor did I think I'd develop such strong emotions towards something I created. The fact that Zed's story was abruptly cut short is entirely on me, and so I thank everyone who had supported the story the views, the follows the likes and the comments. I do feel like we shared some sort of a bond in a way. How we all spent a little bit of time of our day to share and company each other in a world entirely made for us, albeit just for a short while so I also apologize for letting you down.
Whether I'd write anything again or not doesn't change the fact that this was indeed a special period of my life and it taught me a lot.
Alright, enough with the pity party. Have a good life guys, take care of yourselves!
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